Another Day of Hell

Today, in a brief moment, I considered my decision to leave as being too harsh. But then, I thought about all the stupid fights over stupid shit he starts to control everything, everyone, and telling me to find another place to live, knowing he's the one who has refused me to work. It's a sick game. I thought that maybe we could keep this amicable, or at least considerate, for the kids' sakes. That was until two things came to my attention today. One, he's used his key to my car to get things of his that were in it without my knowledge. Second, the wifi board has been removed from my laptop in the past 2 days. WHO THE HELL DOES THIS??
It's all about control. Then, tonight I go in the massively strong extremely cold wind to get supper, just to have the blower motor die on me, causing me to freeze in a warmed engine car. So, the question I have....
Just how far will he go, to what extent will his desire to control everything and everyone go to keep and control me?
It's not like I do anything wrong, I truly don't. I take care of everyone, everyday, and nothing for myself but the book I'm writing. But, its not enough, he still doesn't have enough of me. Why? I have a child, and its not his, and she's in his way of totally controlling the way I think, walk, talk, breathe, and who I choose to be around, which would only be him.

I've been gone too long

I intentially started this blog as emotional therapy. But, same as a million of us who do so, I got distracted or nervous of bearing my soul. To anyone who reads this, I WILL BE bearing my soul, along with all the emotions I'd rather lock inside. For me, it will be my therapy, for everyone else, maybe, just maybe, they can relate to my nightmare of a life. Tomorrow, it begins.